18 9 / 2014

Thanks. :) I needed that reminder that I don’t always have to reach my high standards and it’s okay that I don’t. 

xo

Thanks. :) I needed that reminder that I don’t always have to reach my high standards and it’s okay that I don’t.

xo

18 9 / 2014

My therapist miraculously had an opening tomorrow morning that fits my schedule perfectly! I saw her on Tuesday, but I’m definitely in need of a little extra support this week.

18 9 / 2014

mindful-magick replied to your post: I can’t remember being hit this hard w…

:( Sorry it’s weighing you down so much at the moment. But you’re doing all the right things. I find the more I do and try to distract myself from it, the faster I recover. *hugs*

Thanks *hugs*  Trying to keep busy, which is easy enough to do at work, but harder when I’m at home. 

mixedlollybag replied to your post: I can’t remember being hit this hard w…

You will come out the other end! You’re right, just keep pushing through. Mention this to your t or doc? Just so they know. Super big hugs for you xoxoxox

I saw my therapist a couple days ago, so she knows how much I’m struggling right now. Tempted to try to fit another session in with her this week yet. 

*hugs* 

18 9 / 2014

I was planning on going to work early today. Oops. I’ve been “late” every day this week. I have flexible hours so it’s not technically late, but I am usually the first one in the office… not the last. 

It is so flippin’ hard to get out of bed. If I didn’t care so much, I’d just stay in bed and forget the world. But alas, onward. 

17 9 / 2014

I can’t remember being hit this hard with depression before. It’s always been more low grade. This time around, I feel like I’m hanging on for dear life. 

The amount of energy it takes just to get through the day is exhausting. But I keep putting one foot in front of the other. I’m bound to come out the other side eventually, right? 

 

17 9 / 2014

"Work hard for what you want because it won’t come to you without a fight. You have to be strong and courageous and know that you can do anything you put your mind to. If somebody puts you down or criticizes you, just keep on believing in yourself and turn it into something positive."

17 9 / 2014

17 9 / 2014

dusoleildhiver:

most people without one don’t understand how exhausting anxiety disorders are, it’s like being taken in by quicksand only instead of pieces of sand pulling you under, it’s different worries that are completely irrational and most of the time we know they’re irrational and stupid but we just can’t stop them

(via clinicallydepressedpug)

17 9 / 2014

I just made an appointment to get a rather drastic (for me) haircut. I’ve been thinking about get my hair cut short for yeeeaaaars but have never gone for it. I’m at a point now where I NEED a change.

And if it turns out horrible, hair grows back….

16 9 / 2014

mindful-magick replied to your post: Sooooo…. I literally hung up on my dad…

Hey good on you for being able to phone back. That would have taken a lot.

Definitely took a lot! But it was good that I forced myself to actually have a tough conversation instead of running away like usual. My T was right, talking through things is a whole lot better than ignoring and letting things fester… Who knew! lol